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03/02/13

Update

I didn’t even remember posting that last thing. I was out of it. I’m sorry for anyone who saw that… I edited out all the rambling nonsense.

I just-

I miss you so much Callie. I don’t know what to do. I’ve been staying at Ryan’s because it’s too much- to be fair, I think he needs it too. I can’t sleep in our room anymore. At first it was too familliar, I woke up every day and for a second you were still there, just hidden away under the covers. And then it all comes crashing back in. The breath is knocked out of me, I can’t breathe. No one can and the house is so silent.

I had to pack your stuff and Mom moved out your bed, and now I can’t sleep because its so empty. You’re gone.

You’re gone.

I keep finding myself coming back to this site. I think maybe. This is okay. It kindof feels like doing something with you again. Even though I know you can’t really weigh in on it. I think you’d let me.

I’m think I’m going to make these pages unlisted though.

I don’t really know what else to do.

I don’t know.